Lamar Odom has disclosed his addiction to sex in his new memoir “Darkness to Light” in which he also spoke about his relationship with reality TV star Khloe Kardashian.
Writing about his addiction to sex, the former NBA star said:
“I have been obsessed with sex for as long as I can remember. I am a sex addict — I’ve had sex with more than two thousand women. “There were too many strippers to count. It wasn’t a big deal, but often I would pay them. I never thought less of them,” he adds.
He went on to reveal that in 2005, his third child, a son, with Liza, who died, made everything to go downhill for him. This also led to his infidelity.
“My sex addiction and my cocaine addiction go hand in hand. The first time I tried cocaine was in 2004. The rush was like nothing I’d felt before. I was a drug addict plain and simple. The first time I overdosed, I came within minutes of dying,” he writes.
Lamar Odom suffered an overdose in 2015 in the midst of his divorce from Khloe Kardashian. He was found at a Las Vegas brothel and had to be rushed to the hospital in critical condition.
“I didn’t know if I would play again,” writes the athlete. “I didn’t even know if I would walk or talk again.”
“I met Khloe Kardashian in 2009. Her eyes reminded me of my mother’s,” he writes.
“For a while, being with her was bliss and I was the happiest I’ve ever been.” “At the start of our marriage I was faithful to her,”
Odom writes. “But my cocaine use spiked in the summer of 2011.”
That year, he “rarely touched a basketball. I could not handle the lethal cocktail of the spotlight, addiction, a diminishing career and infidelity. Oh, did I mention the paranoia, anxiety, depression.”
Odom says he knew what he was doing was wrong, but he couldn’t control his addictions.
“I couldn’t keep my d**k in my pants or the coke out of my nose,” he writes. “Drug addicts are incredibly skilled at hiding their habit. I’d get defensive and Khloe would just drop it. I was giving up on my NBA career — the only thing that ever gave me solace,” he writes, adding that he didn’t get called by the league, and as his former teammates trained, he destroyed his mind and body.
Speaking about his overdose, he says he doesn’t know how he survived, but he’s determined to never return to that terrifying place again.
“On Tuesday morning, I lay on the floor in my room at the Ranch, dying. My body was convulsing. The women who kept me company screamed and called 911,” he writes.
“I was taken to Sunrise Hospital in Las Vegas. There was an unholy concoction of cocaine, cognac, and cannabis coursing through my veins. My heart stopped twice. I had twelve seizures and six strokes. My lungs collapsed and my kidneys ruptured. I was on life support.”
“Everyone I’d ever loved was looking at me through bleary eyes. Khloe never left my side. She didn’t shower for days. Kim’s resiliency was incredible too. They put chairs together for her to sleep across at night,” Odom writes.
“On October 16, I opened my eyes for the first time in 48 hours. From the darkness to the light.”
Odom admits he’s “still an addict,” but is working to improve his life.